Month: January 2024

I have been sick for about 6 weeks now (post date : 01-26-2024) , and getting over it just today I believe.  The coughing that took me to blackout and just short of it, is less now.  Chest congestion, head congestion, ear aches, body aches, foggy thinking, stomach aches, no taste or smell of food, and if there was, it was awful.  Through that time praying was hard, much more difficult than ever before, and just having hope was impossible.  Hope in what?  Another night and day of certain misery until?  Its one thing to be sick for a few days, even a couple weeks, but 6 weeks!  I knew and know God is with me, in me, but it became also clear he was letting me go through the length and width and breathe of this sickness.  Perseverance is a very unwelcomed teacher.  It teaches lessons we don’t want to have to learn.  It reveals in us complacency, taking things for granted, even apathy.  But, I didn’t care really, if there was a good reason for it in the end or not.  I just wanted it to be over with.  So I prayed angry prayers, why wouldn’t he heal me!  I mean out loud, yelling to Him, to His face.  I knew he could, I hoped he would, but he did not.